So I know I said I’d post an update/new header immediately, but I have been a little busy. My grandfather died… that comes as no shock and it hasn’t hit me to the point where I’m terribly upset about it just yet. I guess we all grieve differently though.

I wasn’t able to go up to see him like was originally planned, but I can’t really be mad because all 6 of the siblings – including Charlie and crazy Elaine – got together for the first time in like 20 years. I’m sure the trip was very interesting. They get back today. Mum is going to go pick my father up from Mike’s house and then he is taking mum, Randy, John and I out to eat. That’s right – John too. That will be a first for me. John’s fine with it and I’ve already met most of his family, but I’m terrified tbh. I’ve never done this before.

He’s actually on his way over right now which is why I don’t have time for a longer update, but no one reads the long shit anyway. So peace out bitches and wish me luck!

So I found a great theme made by Ayiene of intoxxicated.net, so I’m happy about Wordpress again. Going to try to make a cool header (not the hugest Demi Lovato fan tbh). Yay.

I will make a real update later, I just wanted to let everyone know my site isn’t dead.

It seems every time I try to start a blog/website/whatever, something happens. Then I go from having all the time in the world to none at all… or too depressed/manic to actually give a shit about updating. I get kinda bad about that. But I’m trying to work on things. And perhaps blogging will actually help since I never talk about things with people anyway. So here goes.

My “best friends” Jaymie and Tim are getting divorced. This comes as no shock. She’s a little girl who never grew up even though she’s now a mother of two and he was a boy who jumped into a relationship far too fast and got stuck when two wonderful little boys came along. Of course, he loves them more than anything. So he was trying to stick it out and “do the right thing”, but being together with her got to be too much. Of course there is much more to this situation and I’ve been along for the ride for three years as a very close friend to both to them, an amazing aunt to the children, and a roommate at times. But long story short, Jaymie decided to turn against me in the divorce. That even though I’ve been dating Tim’s best friend John and before that was in a 3 year on again/off again relationship with a douchebag, I’ve apparently found the time to have an affair with Tim. And I’m trying to steal the kids! So now my former “best friend” is supposedly filing a restraining order on me so I can’t see the kids. What the fuck?!

In the meantime, I’ve been seeing John (Tim’s best friend). It’s an extremely different experience leaving a man who treats me like his emotional punching bag and getting involved with a man who would throw his coat down over a puddle so I can walk in the rain. (Okay, so he hasn’t done that, but I joked once that its the only thing he has yet to do and he about did it! I told him not to be silly and I already feel quite silly that he feels the need to open every door for me and says “ma’am” all the time.) We have a lot in common (though I’m a Marvel and he’s a DC) and I don’t have to act a certain way around him. He loves that I’m such a big nerd – though he likes to tease me by buying me Pokemon cards every trip to Walmart – and he thinks the way I’m a bossy bitch is “cute and endearing”. We’ve been together two months and we’ve yet to get in a fight. That’s a world record in my book. All in all, I’m pretty damn happy with him. It feels good to be happy in a relationship… I forgot what that was like.

Of course, as things go, I can’t exactly leave this post on a good note: today I found out that my Grandpa Tom is on life support and we don’t think he’ll make it. Mum had to borrow money to get my father a plane ticket from Kuwait so he can come see his father. He’s in a hospital in Chicago. Lisa and Mike will be driving up on Saturday and I’ll be joining them (thanks to John). I won’t let this be like when Granny died. I want to say my goodbyes and promise him that I’ll stay sober through it all. I hit my one year on December 21 and I have to say he’s been a huge inspiration for me. I found out he had like 20 years sober or something? Don’t quote me on it, I can’t remember how many years. All I know is if he could do it, I damn well should too. So no matter what happens, I’m going to be strong for him. And I need him to know that.

Well, I think I’ve talked long enough. I’m determined to keep updating this thing, so maybe next time there won’t be so much to read.

EDIT: Excuse the theme. Its temporary while I figure out what I wanna do about my layout. I’m actually considering a downgrade; I’d rather do everything manually and spend ages coding then deal with Wordpress right now. I like div layers and it doesn’t seem I have the smarts to figure out how put Wordpress in such a manner. I’m not a fan of the template look. Maybe I’m giving up too easy, but if that [having a pretty... site] will help motivate me to blog, then the extra work is worth it.

And I got to be a very proud big sister. My brother is 18 years old, has just started college, and is still wearing the same shitty clothes he had in 7th grade. This is not because we are white trash poor but because the kid is such a creature of habit that he hates to change, doesn’t like standing out, and gets embarrassed shopping.

Well, today he decided I needed to get out of the house so he took me for a drive (he’s had his license for just about a month now, he loves driving) to show me the MTSU campus and the mall in Murfreesboro. He actually went into Charlotte Rouse, 21, and A Gaia (sp?) and watched me try on dresses and told me what stuff he thinks is hot on a chick (which he never talks about, the shy fucker). Then I took him into a couple different stores so we could try to work on his “style”… or lack-thereof.

When we went into Buckle, it was like heaven. The assistant manager came over to help us (and flirt, flirt, flirt… but it was hard to tell if he was flirting with me or Randy or both) and between him and I, we talked Randy into trying on some Big Star jeans and this awesome graphic tee in a small. When he came out of the fitting room, it was like looking at a different person. We put a blazer and a fedora on him and I dare say with a haircut he could look sexy. My dorky brother – sexy. Woooooooow.

I love Buckle. And now, so does Randy. My uninterested brother is now looking forward to a weekly mall trip with me. I’m in shock.

The reason I haven’t really started things is because I’ve been going through some health issues recently. I am alive and hopefully getting better, so no worries there. I will get things started this weekend. I will be fixing things up, uploading my TCG page to the domain, and I will be hosting my homegirl Brie. Because IRL friends rock.

In the meantime, I am at my boyfriend’s house and stealing a fading internet connection, so I cannot do anything major at the moment. But I am posting at Inferno and my Facebook if you would like to stalk me.

While I am not here, Eric will keep you company:

I’m working on this right now! Its been a while since I had a site and used Wordpress, so bare with me.

Darkside Royalty was very generously given to me and is hosted by the wonderful Micki of Day is Gone. ♥

My trading post is still up at http://misstiff.000space.com so if you are looking for my cards, go there.